drug addict help me define

I have every now and then used some recreationals in the past so many years but have never lost a job or been in any great mess because of drugs. But I have been in so much much mess when I was not using an drugs of whatever form. I am saying here I function normally, nicer and kinder when I am under the influence of drugs in comparison to being a real nasty and malicious shrew off drugs. Physically, I do not care how I look off drugs that I could be a proper couch potato gaining unwanted pounds whenever I get off drugs. I check out botox,cosmetic enhancement as part of my trips.


I got arrested the first time when I decided to save my money to go for a nose job and say goodbye to nose candy. My dealer was making a last attempt to tempt me by leaving me a packet as a goodbye present (I was going away for the nose job) when few minutes when he left, the cops came in and knowing I got no choice as it was my flat, I got a fine as it was a first offense.


I am now facing another case of which deciding that an own flat situation was dangerous in terms of being raided again for drugs, I decided to share a room with a non-drug user. She knows my habits and she said as long as I did not make the house a place for the dealer to know , she was okey with it. We had a good relationship until she needed a huge amount of money asap and I lent her the amount. The chance of her repaying was not high and the next thing I know cops came in and not finding any drugs but just pharaphernalia. I find out much later flatmate reported me thinking I go to jail then I cant collect the money she owes me.


As a second time offender I could be remanded for two weeks and urine test be made for DATC and positive results could mean jail term.


I need some opinion on some issues here.


I have tried so many times to stop using. I8 mean I could live without drugs forever in my life , of whoch I know that forever is short as I without drugs make the most mess in my life. I dont go through the cold turkey thing or any symptoms of what a withdrawal does. I just sort of change into a different unstoppable monster when I am off drugs.


My productivity level reaches the highest level I could when I am on drugs.


I should see a psychiatrist? I am not normal(sane) when I am not normal? (into drugs)


Being remanded to a facility will make me a worst person. Being lumped together with non-canto speaking inmates, and clean I could definitely be a walking time bomb.


Incarcerated in a correctional to serve time will be a sure way formula drawing out my nasty behaviour.


Should I be in the next flight out of Hong Kong and simply run away? I am on bail yet been out of Hong Kong so many times.

Wow...well I am unaware of the laws in Hong King, but having been busted for cocaine in the states I know enrollment in a treatment program helped my case. When it was time to go to court, I already had the slip of paper that said I was enrolled in rehab, which the judge saw as me kind of taking responsibility for my actions and whatnot..bottom line, it kept me out of jail. As far as the drug addict question, many peoples definition of a drug addict is someone who requires drugs to function at a level which they feel is normal, which sounds like it may be your case. I have been a drug addict for several years and have been in the same situation, good jobs, good grades, and decent relationships. If I were you I would start looking into the laws and see if there is any rehab alternative to jail, it is usually shorter and may help you in the long run.

Vendage: I do accept I have a problem. I know I am a monster when I am not on drugs and a nicer person when I am on drugs because it is merely a justification for me that "what the heck I am clean I can be a monster". Whereas if I am on it, I am aware that people are watching my behaviour so I work on it as perfect as possible that I am a person who is not into any of these recreationals.

the drugs is not my problem, it is my total behaviour, I admit to that.


Expert: which expert in Hong Kong should I see? Anyone could point me to the right direction who/ where to ask help for a non-canto speaker holding permanent id card with limited funds?

go back to your home country and avail of any free professional help which you may be entitled to. you are unwell and need help. the one good thing is that you know you are not well. go with that instinct all the way through to getting a cure. further scrapes with the law in a foreign country will do you no good.


best of luck

There are AA and other substance abuse 12 step meetings at 12 Borrett Road daily. This may help you figure some things out. Addiction is a powerful thing. Recovery is even more powerful. I wish you the best of luck.

twenty days had passed

and i have decided doing it is the only solution i have in this problem i have placed myself into.


i started with limited funds

now i dont have any funds whatsoever and pray to heavens before i could i could even tell anyone i needed money/help or anything.


tomorrow i shall be done with this life.


how i am going to do it i have not yet finalized that.


i have a packet of pills in my possession: i could go overdoze.

or jump out of a building

or swim at the harbour.


whatever.

its bye bye time.

speak to someone?

for what more heartaches?

nah

thanks anyways for the thougts


stats say those who do dont actually go online and talk about it online


they just do it


thing is willi do it?


better question i have to say is


why will i not do it


i got nothing


i just have come to a point that there is nothing i have in my hands at thre moment

that i should go on

http://www.aa-hk.org/


Try Alcoholics Anonymous first before you do anything rash. It's not just for alchohol. Explain your situation and discuss. I'm sure there are people who feel the same way you do about drugs. It's time to see where they stand with it.


Furthermore, there are plenty of chat rooms where this topic is discussed in much more detail than here. Please think of what you're doing and understand that there are a myriad of better choices than taking your life.


Here's a link to drug addiction chatrooms:


http://www.addictionrecoveryguide.org/treatment/mboard_chat/mboard.html


Lost, I wish you the best, and will check for a response from you tomorrow.

please, please rethink. i was in the same space as you just 2 months ago. i was going to end it all. there is a solution!!!! it can be done. suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem!!!!! i am going to a meeting tonight, i would be more than happy for you to come with me. it is a womens-only meeting. please get in touch with me...

There are people that care for you. Family, friends, colleagues.For their sake, don't do this, ok? Just hang in there. Write soon.

why don't you check out Narcotics Anonymous and ou could define you go to their website or go to a meeting it is better and you may find help form other people and see if you cpould define yourself....

Hello, has anyone heard from her. Just read her notes. Sounds really depressing & concern about her. Hang in there. There is light at the end of the tunnel